So here I was at the Atrium mall on a Saturday afternoon (after leaving the office) having lunch alone, the main reason I was there was that I wanted to get myself a ticket for a movie I want to watch now that I am done with the semester, and not to worried about work because I know I will be able to take out time for the movies in the evening. Intentionally I take the table close to the balcony where I can have a good view of everybody in the food court.
Before I started eating, I took out my earphones, plugged them into my cell and its music on: world off mode.The basic idea of doing this whole thing is that I just wanted to write down my feelings when I see other people having fun with their friends or relatives. Its not that I feel alienated because I am alone most of the time, I actually feel a bit secure because when I am with others, I tend to feel a bit insecure for some odd reason, Nom nom nom………..the broast is friggin’ good as always, also is my playlist (nope I am not going to brag about what I listen to, I have already done it previously).
Things I tend to do at public places
So this apparently is not an easy task since here want to jot down the stuff I mostly do when I am at a public place eating out……
• I have a tendency to observe almost every person my eyes can catch.
• And I get this strange feeling of satisfaction, or you might say, relieve when I see them , don't know how to translate it better………okay I can try, when I am listening to a sweet song (example, Coming up strong by Karmin or Roads Untraveled by Linkin Park, Kal by Rahul Bhatt) I tend to fit it on what I observe, typical of what it normally is at a food court in the mall (I am sure you guys can try to relate now). P.S the songs mentioned are actually in my playlist.
• I am weak in making choices whether its regarding shopping, selecting food or whatever. Its like as if those things are talking to me, thanks to Google I managed to find out that it's a disorder known as Personification.
• When I listen to my playlist I tend to play it in shuffle mode which for me is kind of awkward because if it's not In shuffle mode, it means that one knows the upcoming songs in the playlist. I have been thinking about it and I get the feeling that since I am mostly into surprises, for example, when going out with family, I don't want to know where are we going or if i know about going to a particular place, I tend not to ask about its exact location. So that's why when listening to music, I don’t want to know what song is coming next, anticipating my favorite………..
• You may consider me as a freak that wants others to make fun of him but honestly I don’t. Apart from all this I tend to vocalize my thoughts as well. In case if others catch me, one good way of hiding it is to keep the earphones plugged in .
One good example I can give here is that when I went up to the box office to inquire about the next weeks movie lineup, I had to get into a queue, thankfully it wasn't a long one and mentally when I decided to get into it, I said to myself “Line mai lag ja yaar, kya ja raha hai tera”. For those of you who do not understand, in English its like, “Get in the line man, whats it going to cost you”. Don't worry I didn't say it out loud.
On the whole this thing is a bit worrying for me because I inquired about this on a forum and that is where I found out about the fact that its not always called talking to yourself, its thought vocalization. Then I started to see how it works, only to find out that all that rubbish inside my head comes onto my mouth and you don't feel like controlling it.
Okay so that's enough of exposing my self for now, sadly there were no movies of real interest for me, not even Hobbit, sorry I have not been reading Lord of the Rings. Peace out peeps
Before I started eating, I took out my earphones, plugged them into my cell and its music on: world off mode.The basic idea of doing this whole thing is that I just wanted to write down my feelings when I see other people having fun with their friends or relatives. Its not that I feel alienated because I am alone most of the time, I actually feel a bit secure because when I am with others, I tend to feel a bit insecure for some odd reason, Nom nom nom………..the broast is friggin’ good as always, also is my playlist (nope I am not going to brag about what I listen to, I have already done it previously).
Things I tend to do at public places
So this apparently is not an easy task since here want to jot down the stuff I mostly do when I am at a public place eating out……
• I have a tendency to observe almost every person my eyes can catch.
• And I get this strange feeling of satisfaction, or you might say, relieve when I see them , don't know how to translate it better………okay I can try, when I am listening to a sweet song (example, Coming up strong by Karmin or Roads Untraveled by Linkin Park, Kal by Rahul Bhatt) I tend to fit it on what I observe, typical of what it normally is at a food court in the mall (I am sure you guys can try to relate now). P.S the songs mentioned are actually in my playlist.
• I am weak in making choices whether its regarding shopping, selecting food or whatever. Its like as if those things are talking to me, thanks to Google I managed to find out that it's a disorder known as Personification.
• When I listen to my playlist I tend to play it in shuffle mode which for me is kind of awkward because if it's not In shuffle mode, it means that one knows the upcoming songs in the playlist. I have been thinking about it and I get the feeling that since I am mostly into surprises, for example, when going out with family, I don't want to know where are we going or if i know about going to a particular place, I tend not to ask about its exact location. So that's why when listening to music, I don’t want to know what song is coming next, anticipating my favorite………..
• You may consider me as a freak that wants others to make fun of him but honestly I don’t. Apart from all this I tend to vocalize my thoughts as well. In case if others catch me, one good way of hiding it is to keep the earphones plugged in .
One good example I can give here is that when I went up to the box office to inquire about the next weeks movie lineup, I had to get into a queue, thankfully it wasn't a long one and mentally when I decided to get into it, I said to myself “Line mai lag ja yaar, kya ja raha hai tera”. For those of you who do not understand, in English its like, “Get in the line man, whats it going to cost you”. Don't worry I didn't say it out loud.
On the whole this thing is a bit worrying for me because I inquired about this on a forum and that is where I found out about the fact that its not always called talking to yourself, its thought vocalization. Then I started to see how it works, only to find out that all that rubbish inside my head comes onto my mouth and you don't feel like controlling it.
Okay so that's enough of exposing my self for now, sadly there were no movies of real interest for me, not even Hobbit, sorry I have not been reading Lord of the Rings. Peace out peeps
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