Well to be honest it really has been a long time since i posted a blog, simply because nothing special has been happening in my life. I mean, all I do is go to work in the morning, on alternative days yes I go to university as well, then I come back home by 10 or by evening, that’s it, the day is done.
Also at the same time I am trying to maintain a blog where I am supposed to write about the random stuff in life that happens with me, that’s rite, no religion and no politics, both are very sensitive topics for me and quite frankly I avoid them. The sad part is that it seems as if nothing is happening, or maybe I am not making it happen…………….
Hardly any social life with office colleagues, university mates (that’s right, I do not have a group) and no quality time with family (in the real sense). So why is it going the way I am not comfortable and at the same time I enjoy it too……………….stuck on a cross-road for quite some time now and I seriously need some help. I really need to change my mental thought process, after all its kind of complicated (the human brain, u never know). Here let me give you one simple example.
Family and a few people I know around me emphasize on the fact that I should have a large reference circle, that I should be more social. it helps you out big time throughout your life. Okay fine I agree with this but then again I have a strange principal.
“If I am not meant to stick around at a place (work, university etc.) then why the hell should I try to get close to the people there?”
The place where I am working currently, Its currently neutral because I do not get to openly talk to my boss (who turns out to be my father’s friend and only 10 years older than me) because I feel that there is something keeping me at bay, like an invisible force of some sort, and I don’t know what to do about it. I mean, I have got to keep up because I know that my dad somehow will be getting updates about me behind my back and If I don’t straighten up (according to him) then I guess its all over.
I just don’t know what to do now. Whom to talk to because I know I am a “weird” one and the society already considers such species as outcasts, Life sucks and life rocks as well but for me, Its a blend of both at the same time…………why? again I dont know honestly but HEY!!!!!! as our very own Celine Dion says In one of her songs”………..and thats the way it is”. Sums it all up.
Also at the same time I am trying to maintain a blog where I am supposed to write about the random stuff in life that happens with me, that’s rite, no religion and no politics, both are very sensitive topics for me and quite frankly I avoid them. The sad part is that it seems as if nothing is happening, or maybe I am not making it happen…………….
Hardly any social life with office colleagues, university mates (that’s right, I do not have a group) and no quality time with family (in the real sense). So why is it going the way I am not comfortable and at the same time I enjoy it too……………….stuck on a cross-road for quite some time now and I seriously need some help. I really need to change my mental thought process, after all its kind of complicated (the human brain, u never know). Here let me give you one simple example.
Family and a few people I know around me emphasize on the fact that I should have a large reference circle, that I should be more social. it helps you out big time throughout your life. Okay fine I agree with this but then again I have a strange principal.
“If I am not meant to stick around at a place (work, university etc.) then why the hell should I try to get close to the people there?”
The place where I am working currently, Its currently neutral because I do not get to openly talk to my boss (who turns out to be my father’s friend and only 10 years older than me) because I feel that there is something keeping me at bay, like an invisible force of some sort, and I don’t know what to do about it. I mean, I have got to keep up because I know that my dad somehow will be getting updates about me behind my back and If I don’t straighten up (according to him) then I guess its all over.
I just don’t know what to do now. Whom to talk to because I know I am a “weird” one and the society already considers such species as outcasts, Life sucks and life rocks as well but for me, Its a blend of both at the same time…………why? again I dont know honestly but HEY!!!!!! as our very own Celine Dion says In one of her songs”………..and thats the way it is”. Sums it all up.
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